I entered the ICU of St Vincent’s Hospital on Sunday, February 26th, 2017, confident in God’s power to heal my mother.
I overcame every negative diagnosis with the blood of Jesus. Stroke. Pneumonia. Mass on her lung. By His stripes!
I read scriptures on healing aloud to my mother.
I called the Elders from my church.
I knew that the same power rested inside of me that healed the blind, caused the lame to walk, gave life to the dead…
I had much more than a mustard seed of faith but…on March 8, 2017, my mother breathed her last breathe.
What do you when God doesn’t heal?
When you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He will but He doesn’t.
When you are so confident that you leave her hospital bed with every confidence she will be healed only to receive a call that you never imagined.
Not yet. Not now. I need her.
People ask, “How you are doing?”
They ask, “Are you okay?”
They send cards. Flowers. But no one understands the depth of the burden of your heartbreak…when God doesn’t heal.
You try to resume your life. You try to go through the motions but it is a charade. You learn to live with it, to adapt but you will never be “okay”.
My mother. My rock. My friend.
The above post was written Saturday, April 15th, 2017, then I listened to Joel Osteen’s sermon, Unconditional Trust.
But is your trust in God conditional?
Do you only trust Him if He heals, if He delivers, if He removes the obstacle?
Or do you have faith like Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego in Daniel 3?
Faith that says, “but even if He doesn’t…”
Unconditional trust, that says I trust You regardless.
Trust that says all things…not some…not most…but ALL things work together for the good. (Romans 8:28)
Ask yourself this, “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?” (Romans 8:35).
For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38,39)
Thank you Joel Osteen for reminding me to trust God unconditionally- Trust Without Borders!
So to answer my own question – What do you when God doesn’t heal? Trust God!
As always, it is my hearts desire to encourage just one person that is grieving.
Everyone deals with grief differently and it’s normal to mourn the lost of a friend or family member, just don’t let grief consume you. With time you will heal. Find your hope in the death, burial and resurrection of our Lord and Savior, Jesus ❤️